My blood is boiling in all four chambers of my heart. I want to know everything. Especially everything forbidden. I want to know good from evil… or perhaps… evil from good. I know with a few more tries I’ll find that catalyst I’ve been looking for — that compound that reacts with my boiling blood and ignites my heart with eternal fire, infinite heat. I know it’s out there. I saw it in that girl’s flickering glance. I heard it in that minor chord on the radio. It’s just over the hill, just around the corner. I think it’s down one of these two bifurcations in my fractal life. Let me just hit the end of these two possibilities real quick, they won’t branch too much. Once I’ve mapped this fractal I’ll see how it all fits together from above. Shouldn’t take too much longer. I know I’ll find that Life I’m looking for down one of these paths, or at least I’ll understand the big picture well enough to know Life once I’ve mapped all the corridors. I’m all right. I’m on my way.

‘So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.’
— 2 Corinthians 4:18

‘Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.’
— Matthew 10:39

‘Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you;
he rises to show you compassion.
For the LORD is a God of justice.
Blessed are all who wait for him!’
— Isaiah 30:18

‘So be careful to do what the LORD your God has commanded you; do not turn aside to the right or to the left.’
— Deuteronomy 5:32

‘Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you.’
— Proverbs 4:25

‘Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.’
— Hebrews 12:2

‘He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life. ‘
— John 5:12